Let’s get something straight. Going through a spiritual awakening isn’t always fun. Enlightening, yes. Fun, no. Ascension can be rough. Like maybe you feel like you’re having a nervous breakdown rather than experiencing spiritual enlightenment. You know, no biggie.
It’s in our darkest moments however, that we tend to experience the most growth. When you’re going through it though, it can feel like you’re going through hell. Which essentially, you are. You’re shedding what no longer serves you. When we start the process of awakening, there are circumstances we encounter that seem far from what we envision it to consist of.
Nothing makes sense anymore? You’re tired all the time? You cry for no reason, like on the reg? Want to step into oncoming traffic? Drive your car into a tree? Save yourself some grief and understand that waking up isn’t sunshine, unicorns, and motherf*cking rainbows. It’s raw and it’s real. And it will shake your world like nothing you’ve experienced before.
5 Things You Will Experience in a Spiritual Awakening…That Might Make You Think You’re Having a Nervous Breakdown
Depression, anxiety, panic, and fear are all part of the process. Try step outside yourself for a minute, even though this can be really hard when you’re going through it. If you can think about these uncomfortable emotions as life preparing you for something new and really accentuating the old as it does, it can make it easier.
We have to work through all the old shit we’ve been dealing with (and not dealing with) for years in order to become who we really are. The only way out is through. It’s super common to fall into deep levels of depression, intensified anxiety, and acute fear as you make room to step into an entirely new level of existence.
2. Recurrence of Old Patterns and Habits
You may find yourself repeating patterns and habits that you thought you had let go of long ago. I’ve personally taken on lovers I knew were terrible for me, lived in extreme poverty, and let my vices get the best of me.
Get this though. We only repeat the same patterns and habits so we can learn the lessons we need to take from them once and for all. And we have to continue to do these things until we learn how not to do them.
So keep doing them until you don’t. And try not to judge yourself in the process. You’re not losing it. You’re just figuring out what you DON’T want so you can make room for what you do.
3. Emotional Ups and Downs
One moment you may be on top of the world…and ten minutes later you’re going bat shit crazy. You may find yourself go from lonely to totally content being alone, and back to lonely again in a span of like 5 minutes. This also goes for feeling happy and sad. Crying one day, and elated the next. All normal and all part of the process. Ride the waves of these crazy emotions. They’ll pass.
4. Heightened Sensitivity to Surroundings (Noise, Light, People)
You may find it difficult to be in surroundings that were once totally normal for you. Years ago, when I feel I really started ascending, I could no longer go to the bar and feel comfortable. I found I’d rather stay home than around the energy contained in the bar.
Noise levels may intensify, your sensitivity to light may increase, and the people you once loved being around now turn you off. Places you used to go might no longer hold interest for you and it may be difficult to attend social settings.
Do what feels right for you. If you don’t want to go somewhere, don’t go. You don’t want to hang with someone anymore, gently let them go from your life.
5. Changes in Energy Levels
You may feel very fatigued one minute (like almost to the point of exhaustion) and then full of energy the next. Sleep patterns may become interrupted and there is often a great sense of restlessness.
Rest when you can. Take naps. And when your energy seems to be bouncing off the walls, get up and do something about it! Go for a walk, do some yoga, go on a bike ride. It’s important to listen to your body. If you’re tired, don’t push yourself. If you’re restless, release that energy, even if it is in the middle of the night. Once your body adjusts to the changes happening to your subconscious mind, you’ll find your energy levels begin to balance back out.
You Aren’t Going Crazy…
Everything you experience when you are on the verge of waking up is literally preparing you for a new energy field. Much of what you experience is your body and mind removing stuck energy, clearing toxins, and helping to release old traumatic and negative patterns. When you realize that what you’re experiencing is actually put in front of you to propel you forward, it becomes somewhat easier to accept and understand what you’re going through.
When you know that what you are experiencing is absolutely normal and that you’re not going crazy, it can make it easier for you to look at what you’re experiencing as divine lessons for profound spiritual growth. When we learn to see these things as the gift from the Universe (because this is what they are) we can begin to let go of what no longer serves us.
This is actually what all these not-so-fun experiences are for. They’re here to teach us what we no longer need to be. How would you ever know you really didn’t want unless your life got really shaken up just one more time? You would never know that living one way or experiencing one certain thing was something you adamantly didn’t want unless you experienced it in the worst possible way.
Welcome to waking up. It’s crazy, but it doesn’t mean you are. Knowing that what you’re experiencing on the path to a higher state of being is normal might just help steady the steps you take along the way.